I have been finding it incredibly hard this week to stay positive, this may come as a surprise to some as we have had nothing but amazing news and I have been treated to all manner of wonderful things ranging from an iPhone 5 to new underwear and its not even Christmas yet. However I am finding it very difficult to cope with all the good things that have been happening. I have been feeling very anxious and waiting for something to go horribly wrong, as inevitably it always does, doesn't it?
In a bid to keep my mind of things and keep busy I have moved our Christmas tree 6 times, changed it from 6ft to 8ft and now back to the 6ft tree, moved and redecorated the trimmings more times then I can count and I think today I am happy with the way the festivities look.
I was determined to put all the decorations off the 8ft tree onto the 6ft tree and although there is not an empty branch and it looks like it is going to topple over, I LOVE IT! It is rammed full of sparkle and ornaments to look at. And when I came downstairs this morning, the room had the wonderful Christmas aroma. Thus I know Christmas day is not far away.
I pared down some bits as well, like the mantle in a bid to keep things festive yet simple
Three reasons mainly for this, the below chaos is the first
My ever train obsessed 3yr old and a 10mth old (napping in bed at the time of taking) who just cause that much mayhem that I can not cope with the chaos of Christmas decorations on top. I like a balance between the chaos/order, and having fricking Christmas crap everywhere starts to drive me insane after about a week. So I have started to pack bits away and minimise the initial explosion.
The second reason has been the delivery of my 2 new bookcases for the dining room, so I can finally get the room to look right and somewhere convenient for my sewing/painting stuff ready for my 2013 of re-discovering and re-defining my creative side
This was all I could achieve in between the boys this afternoon but now that the hubby is off for two weeks over Christmas, I am sure it will be all be sorted and ready for next year.
And the thirdly... my birthday is on the 24th! Yes that is right - Christmas Eve!
As the wonderful Melanie from Folly bird also shares my despair over having a birthday around Christmas, I have to share the link to her latest post on the subject.
We unlucky people who share their birthday with Christmas generally get forgotten. Our birthdays, which in my opinion are a far more important celebration then Christmas, are over shadowed and dismissed by most. I understand that Christmas can be an expensive time for people and especially the last few years a very frugal one for those hit by the recession.. But I am NOT asking for expensive gifts but just a simple card, you can get them for as little as 50p. I can not enjoy the extravagance of a big party as everywhere gets booked for Christmas party's and no one seems to get that it is not Christmas it is my Birthday!
I turn 31 this year, and already I can feel that no one has remembered and Yes! I maybe being selfish but surely that is allowed on your birthday. It is the one day of the year that is all about you and I have to share my excitement with everyone else in the world!
While I sign off for the night, with the bitter taste of selfishness in my mouth but with the hope in my mind that I am wrong. I will leave you with these images taken in the early hours of Tuesday morning, it was a beautiful powder pink light (pictures haven't come out too well but I hope you get the idea)
Winter Blessings to one and all